# 10 Sometimes The Right Choice Is A Bad Choice
Since I took a while to unravel, interesting stuff has been bubbling up.
This came up last week.
Honestly, it confused me. So I’m not surprised that my Twitter friends are confused ; )
It is hard to articulate. But let me try.
By ‘bad’ I mean something that triggers negative emotions, states, responses in me…makes me feel bad and creates problems in the short term.
An example that doesn’t feel entirely adequate, but here it is
Suppose we find our way into an unhealthy lifestyle.
It starts affecting our body right away, but the effects may show up years down the road.
It can emerge as a lethal disease a decade later.
Or as an inconvenient curable illness 5 years earlier.
It could be that we need to make some ‘bad’ choices to trigger the obvious illness earlier on.
Technically, those are bad choices lead to a disease. But ultimately, it gives us a chance to change things before it’s too late.
I feel that similar disasters in personal-professional-social life can sometimes be lifesavers.
Sometimes they happen.
But often we chose them, setting things in motion with decisions we make.
This happens when we’re lost
When we’re in tune with our body mind spirit, we don’t run blind into dysfunctional patterns.
And we won’t need drastic interventions to nudge us back, even if we do stray a while.
But when we’re ignoring inner signals, the non-verbal parts of us need a way to get our attention. And subtle signs don’t make the cut.
The good has been trying and not getting through. So comes the time for bad.
We’ll likely self-sabotage in a big way or jump head first into a sticky situation,
just so we can shake things up.
Give us a momentary hiatus where vital signals can get through.
This we keep forgetting
Not every part of us can talk like you and me
Ten minutes ago, I didn’t know what I was going to write.
Or rather, the part of me that strings this in words didn’t know what I’d write.
The rest of me did.
I know that now because I am in better touch with the non-verbal mes.
A few years ago, there used to be this chasm between my conscious and unconscious worlds.
Things did seep through…they always do find a way…but with way less clarity and consistency.
Then, I ended up making some choices that seem right and wrong in retrospect.
Right because they led me to where I am now - a place of better alignment.
Wrong because they also led me to a difficult, disempowered, disembodied phase where everything seemed to go wrong.
But it did get my attention.
And if it hadn’t, would I have made the many wiser choices later?
I doubt it.
So yes, the slope of awakening can be gentle. But sometimes it isn’t
And since I was ignoring the paths with gentler slopes, it makes sense to try a roller coaster next🎢
By awakening, I mean a change of perspective - in any area of life - not necessarily a full blown spiritual awakening.
So now, farther ahead on the slope on the right,
I feel that perhaps my choices were bad but right.
Because they did lead to a lot of bad (which honestly could have been foreseen-averted, at least to an extent) but they also jolted me back into…well…me.
In retrospect it feels right.
All of it. The good, bad, great, ugly.
I sure believe that the gentle slope is available
But perhaps not at every juncture.
And likely not when we’re too blind to see.
What do you think?